Tuesday, December 16, 2008

My Darkest Hour

Well today started off to be the darkest day in such a long time. My mom passed away this morning at 815am ,she was doin poorly for a while now and she just gave up .
My aunts are all telling me i,ma murderer because of the hard choices in her medical care i had to make and now everyone is hurting me ,i know they r hurting but so am i . i choose what would make her the most comfortable i did not want her goin out in pain , but now i wonder did i make the right choice .
I still cannot belive it my momma 8is gone ,we were neva that close but still she was my mom and she will always be in my heart ,,mary

12 comments:

kims craft obsession said...

No one should have to make such decisions, my prayers are with you to find peace.

ange said...

i'm so sorry about your mom's passing, mary. i'm certain that you made the best choices you could.

Kathy said...

My condolences. I am so sorry that you had to make those kinds of choices. But I understand because I did too. I just lost my Mom, my best friend on Dec. 6th so I know what you are going through. I hope you are able to find peace in your heart. Remeber the good times. You and your family will be in my prayers.

SJo said...

Mary, your aunts did not have to make the choices ... you did. Your mom went without pain. That all by itself is a wonderful thing.

I'm sorry about her passing, but I am even sorrier about the folks in your life that are critizing what had to be hard decisions on your part.

Milly~ said...

I'm so sorry to hear of your mom's passing Mary. You've made decisions that were hard but I'm sure you made the best choices so don't worry about family. They are in pain too and are lashing out.

needles-and-quilter-me said...

My heart and prayers go out to you and the rest of your family on the loss of your mother. I lost my own mother several years ago and know the feelings you are feeling. Give the rest time and they will be there for you again. You did the best you could for YOUR situation and they will realize that too soon enough!

Mary said...

Mary,
I'm sorry your mom died. I can imagine how hard it must have been. I had been dealing with my aunt's issues almost like that for a while but she seems to be shaping up and not shipping out as my grandmother used to say.
Your aunts were mean to say what they did. I agree with SJo. she says it perfectly.
Hugs!!!!
Mary D.

Laura said...

Mary, I am so sorry about your Mom. I can feel your pain intensely because my Mom passed away on September 30th at my home after a month of hospice care.

Bon courage! (Have good courage) because you made the right choices for your mother's care.

CeeJay said...

Mary,
My sincerest sympathies and condolences to you and your family.
It is so easy for the words to form on your aunt's lips because they are hurting in their hearts.
I never got to say goodbye to my Mom in 2001, and she passed away before I could get down there. She and I were not close either, she preferred three of our other siblings to the three of us.
I am making decisions for our Dad and my two siblings have absolutely no desire to be in his life, unless it is for the fun stuff.
I know what you are going through. Take heart, dear Lady, you have no one to answer to if they didn't want to share the hard decisions with you.
May your Mom have the honor and joy of looking at our Lord's face, and joining him in song's of praise.
Much love and huggs,
Cait

Romilly said...

I'm so sorry, Mary. That kind of decisions are always difficult, and I wish that the people not involved would realize that we just have to do our best at the time. I'm sure your mother appreciates the difficulties you went through as she passed.

Take care of yourself now. And know that you have stitching friends to help support you.

Pike said...

So sorry to hear about your mother. Please take care of yourself!

Bette said...

My prayers and thoughts are with you at this awful time. Be calm in the knowledge that the choices you made were with her best interests at heart. No one knows better than the children and partner when it comes to these decisions. Again, my condolences.

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